Messy feelings~

blogging again~
here's a place tht i can write wat i feel when i feel i wan to share though...
feeling this days really crappy... temper's really bad...
sad though....
now wan 1 am already, eyes are tired but so many going on on my mind... i'm so confused right now.... i wanted a better life than this.. make more differences than wat i usually do... i wanted to fight for wat i aimed for, but my days are dragging me down... suddenly felt onli blogging once a long time, write wat i felt is the a way, and the onli way i could express my thoughts...
i need to relax.... temporarily.... hope god would give me a good path for me to follow...grant my wish?hehe~ maybe god would text me in facebook?(duh)....
GIVE ME A LITTLE BIT OF STRENGTH HERE!!!! well, sleepy though... trying to get to sleep.... bye all~~~

wats going on yesterday~

The business sucks this days, really scared thibking of wat going to happen in the future if things still going worst like this....
after hearing my dad's saying, im really thinking hard on getting more money for the family.... in the past, i've gone to johor for five months..i.. saw many things around there but nothing useful... i missed my chances of going to singapore, then gone johor to learn more but i failed... came back ...
i reached home, happy to see my mom and dad but... their really disappointed.... my mom dun even looked at my face when i'm bck... saw me bck, she straight away went up stairs without saying anything... with gloomy face though... at least my dad told me theres some food at the kithen.. and also went upstairs.....
i ate alone.... i cried...i hated myself eversince... tht night, went to my own comfy bed.... wetted my pillow.... laugh at myself... 搞到自己这样...
sometimes, i blame my fren from convincing me on coming bck though... but theirs no one to blame but myself right?^^
so.......... right now, struggling to work in brunei... hope things would go smoothly after wat i wrote here though...